Walking Your Path

Third Gateway month is always terrifying for me. I cycle through a gateway each month, which means I hit the Third Gateway in March and August. Here I confront my true identity and am forced over and over to peel away the layers of protection I’ve built up to conceal it from the world.

SahuLast night I dreamed about my most beloved rabbit, Sahu. He died many years ago, but still occasionally visits me in dreams. His name is taken from ancient Egyptian ideas about the soul. It means “body of gold”. My name, Kypris, means “golden one”. Sahu is a part of myself, and he reminds me of my power.

Clearly there’s a theme here but I’m so afraid to shine like that. Afraid to be seen because I’m sure I’ll be squashed, afraid it’s just ego, that I’m seeing myself as something more than I really am. I’m afraid to fly too close to the sun, like Icarus, afraid my wings will be burned away and I’ll come crashing down to the ground, battered, bloody, and gone from being in this world any longer.

It takes courage to live my medicine. Courage to be real about my medicine, which is to shine this golden light into every heart, to heal, to help, to shift. To bring the darkness out of each person I touch and help them become golden too. To create a viral epidemic of Joy and Freedom and Love.

EagleFeatherThe ancestors gave me this job. I didn’t ask for it. They named me “Standing Bird”, which in Apache means aggressive healing medicine. This is healing that lasts. Ironically, although I’ve carried this name for 10 years, I didn’t know until a few weeks ago that those ancestors were Native American, from Ohio. That my great great great grandmother was a Native woman who married an Englishman of wealth and power. All those psychics who saw me with an Eagle feather in my hair were seeing true.

I feel unworthy of this mission and this task. This is the biggest stumbling block. To trust my greatness. To trust that I can do this. That I can allow my radiance to fill the hearts of every person who needs it.

In the Third Gateway I confront my soul, I comfort my inner child, and I say yes to my true medicine. I find ways to authentically live in who I am each day…and help others to do the same. The gateways work is no longer complete for me unless I am assisting others in doing it too.

What is your medicine? What are your life stories? What are you here to do and be in this world? 

I would love to help you explore this though a class or private shamanic support. 

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